yesterday i have a dream about the day i took my psle results,suddenly that pain on that day came back.since that day i never really want to talk about this word anymore i don't want to see the thing again because when ever i see it i just remember what happen that day and my heart felt so pain and it makes me wanna cry.i am running away from the fact that i am a normal academic student i just do not want to face the fact.because i can't belive i am such a stupid person...i don't want to belive that i get such low marks for my psle.just 1 MARK I CAN GO EXPRESS!i can't belive the minute i took my results those hurting words from my teacher i felt that i wanna die.it's not fair why can't i go express just 1 mark only.this feeling it's like if the time goes back 1 more minute u can save yr beloved person.i don't even i can go express this year.maybe i already stop beliving myself.i just fake a smile infront of my friends so they won't see i am such a sad person.there's no one who totally understand me,people close to me think they understand but actually they no,they do not know my past,my thoughts,my mind.sometimes life can be so unfair when u work so hard to acheive something.they just dun let u get what u want.i don't wanna live in this world already,it's so cruel.and things happening recently just break my heart so much and if i cannot go express this year.i dun really feel like living anymore...it's just so heartbreaking...
sweetheart
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