对不起

对不起，我发现原来我们是不能把歌星的歌词放在私人的博客。所以，大家如果想看歌词请到这里：http://wenwen.soso.com/z/q163971458.htm 惊讶吗？我好像是第一次用华文写博客。大家好吗？好久没写了，这个假期真的很闷。我既然有一点想念上课的时候，想念我的好朋友。。。：（ 这个假期唯一值得期待就是出国，还好下个礼拜，我就要出国了。真的很期待！可是假期也让我变得很懒，都不想做功课。哈哈，大家会这么想吗？就这样了，再见了！等我出国回来再写了。。。
sweetheart

When did i became so alone?

Hi guys how are you?I know i said that i will post the lyrics up but because my com have some problems i cannot post it up,really sorry.But it's ok i will try to post up but please give me some time.thank you!:)During the holidays i thought abt a lot of things...But before i said these let me tell you a gd news!That is i am going to EXPRESS next year!!!!!:)))))))))I had work so hard i think i deserve all these...Let me tell you more gd news;i top my class(i always top my class:)i get second place for the whole level!:))I am sorry if i am been very proud here but i am really just so happy and i want to share with u all how i feel.But the sad thing is i feel that i am becoming more and more lonely,i feel that studying so hard is making me losing my friends...What's wrong with me?did i really did something wrong?I just dun want to get back to the life which i live 6 yrs in my primary school...i want to get gd results i want to made my parents proud of me.i just can't stand to see their disapointed face again.i want everyone to be envious of me.i know i am wrong...Everyone been so bad to me in primary school that i just can't seem to believe in friends anymore...i just dun believe in friendship anymore.i feel that no matter how gd she is she will betray someday...:(is she right?did i change to a bad person in secondary school?i really dun know...when did became so alone?
sweetheart

hi...

sorry for not posting for a super super long time.the exams are finally over,everyone very happy rite?dun worry i got very good results for every subject :] last wednesday i go to my school stage for three times to get awards,super embrassing sia...:)but still very happy.recently,i watch a show called"autumn's concerto".it's a very nice show and very sad.go aand watch if you all have the time.:) the song wo ai ta made me cry it's so sad...go and listen if you all have the time i will post the lyrics next time.bye for now!:D
sweetheart

i love you

it's been a super long time since i last post i'm so sorry but i'm just too busy...after exams i 'll try to post more often.today i just want t o write down my feelings to a somebody in my life:i guess i really love you.but i can't find the courage to say i love you to u.i'm scare you will stay further from me.i dun want to hurt her too.i guess i will just keep my love to you in my heart.now then i know it's so hard to pretend that you dun care about somebody when u atually care about that person so much.it's hurts me when she talks abt u.i miss u when i cannot see u.i feel like crying everytime i miss u.i never had this kind of feelongs in my life before.i know i have to give up but really i can't bear to.so i figure out next year i should leave this school so i won't have to see you anymore and i can finally let go of you....although,i dun want to.i love you
sweetheart

heartbroken

-does love really hurts that much?yes i tink so cos i'm so badly hurt...by friends and the someone in my life.i'm really tired of everything.i tink i need to cool down and relax...:(
-yesterday we perform at sku ,singing the national day songs and doing those stupid actions,some actions i do wrongly a bit embrassed but nvm still got some people also like that...:p
-life is quite peaceful for me nowadays,sku is still same old boring.but the biggest changes are us.we change so much.since i meant nothing to you then i 'll give up on you.thank you for letting me love you once....:)
sweetheart

emo....

from today onwards,i am gonna write my blog in pont form!:)
today ok la....
-english test get back not bad:)
-lot's of exmas and test to revise sianz....
-tired of studying everyday
-today go to the stupid promtion board,boring sianz...a waste of time regret going:(
-see people wat harmful effect of smoking and wat drug abbusive,i won't smoke and take drugs want so dun need to waste time on me :D
-hmm,gonna have choir test this wed very very nervous..:(
That's all for today bye bye
sweetheart

funny...

okay today we had the stupid cooking class.and i was really 笨手笨脚 in the stupid and dirty kitchen.there were lots of ants there.so disgusting lol!:(and somemore the teachers want to us to cook with ur bare hands i think it is so unhygenic....gross!;(okay back,to the topic.ya today we were suppose to fry fried noodles....and well wehad to cut the stupid tomato and make it into a rose.it may seems easy when u see the teacher doing but to tell u the truth IS NOT!it was so hard to me and mylene and i had a very difficult time doing that and ending it up we had a small and funny rose but it's ok.we tried our best already...:D second disgusting thing,we had to take out the brain and shells of the raw prawns.that was so disgusting i almost vomit!:( i still had to cut the black(string i dun know what it is called)so gross!we also had a hard time making the egg lol!:p anyway i really sucks at cooking i will work very hard to improve my culinary skills.:)that's all for today and of course if u are wondering did i ate the fried noodles.no i didn't ,hee hee!;D
sweetheart

good mood...

recently good things are happening to me.:Dann jie jie add me as her friend and now really life have change and i really have a better life than last year...so that's all nothing to said so byb byb!
sweetheart

hi i been feeling very happy these few days...;Dcos i met a new friend called carmen.she's really nice.and i feel happy when i'm with her.we both had the same idol:ann kok god i am so happy!;Datually speak to my idol!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!so feeling very great this few day u know the song is delicated to who?very easy i got said her name in this post is xxx ;">can u guess it?:D
sweetheart

my mood abt xxx

Because I'm so stupid and such a fool My eyes don't see nobody but you Even though I know you love someone else You could never know the pain that I felt Oh oh ohYou probably never think of me at allAnd I know we have no memoriesBut the one who really wants you is meIn the end only my tears will fallI stay, you walk awayI stand back, watching you day by dayYou can't see that I'm so in love with youLike the wind you just fly right through (ohhhhh)There are days when I just miss you so muchThere are days when I just long for your touch'I love you' somehow flies right off my lips and soOnce again I'm left crying for youOnce again I'm left here missing youBaby I love you I'm waiting for youYou'll probably never have a dream of meAnd I know I'm in love all aloneThat's why we don't really have memoriesIn the end,

hi guys these few days i was really sick but now about to recover lel!happy!^_^these few days i really think a lot...i decided to forget the past and start refresh again.the past were all bad memories so why should i remember?i will forget everything even those good ones,cos i am really tired liao...anyway sku abt to reopen liao so abt excited and a bit sad...dun know wat to feel la i misss my friendz can finally meet them liao happy!^_^
sweetheart

eager but scare...

hi want to reopen school lel how do u feel?scare?sad?angry?tired?well,i felt both eager and scare.i wish school to reopen but yet i am scare...;(when school reopens again i have to work very hard again so tired sianz...but i would like to meet my friends too,i miss them so much lol,dun u miss ur friends?anyway just finish tution so much homework lol...:( anyway anyone know what to bring on first day of school new books or old books?if u know please write at the tag board pls,thank you!:)that's all for now going to facebook lel,byb!:)
ps:do u all like the new background and flash box?
sweetheart:)

you know in secondary school is worse in primary school i really want to talk to you jia en:thank you for being my side when i need someone to talk to.thank you for being my friend when no else want to.thank you for not looking down on me when i get poor results.thank you for always being at my side.i really miss u so much.do u miss me?when i being left out in secondary school,i always think of you the times we had together the fun we had.do ou know in primary school u are the only person who remembered my birthday?i felt so touched when you said happy birthday to me.you know you are the only person who made me want to go school.i really hate school cause they are always bullying me making fun of me,teachers always scolding me for my poor results.made me dun want to go school.i told u that i enjoy my life in secondary school but i lied i did not enjoy at all i felt so stress,teachers and friends always expecting me to get gd results.i rather miss the feeling we had when we pass our science,it was so darm happy rite?i miss chatting with u,we always said jokes that was so funny that i cried.friends in secondary mostly that were all better in primary school but i do not have a single best friend that really understands me.i really miss u so much,but do u miss me?

omg i am so tired of studying i think i am going to go crazy soon.i know i have to work hard but i am really very tired sometimes i study untill i want to cry already.sometimes,i really feel like giving up fail then fail lol who cares?but my mum is expecting me to get good results and i dun want to let her down.i felt so tired of living i wish to die lol....:(

precious babes^-^

hi guys sorry i haven't update my blog for a very long time cos i am too lazy watching tv haha!:p did i tell i like to watch precious babes in chinese is shang ge niu ren yi ge bao.this show very nice lel!:)i can't wait to see it everyday lol.i like the femele lead lin hui xian cos i think she very preety lol she is my new idol now,surprise!:)anyway 2 morrow going to go watch toy story 3 in cinema i am quite looking forward to it yah!:)recently feel so stress lol felt like going to holiday and shut down my mind for a while.quick open school or else i am getting more and more lazy already...:(
sweetheart

You ask me how my day was as if it is same everydayI say that I'm okay but you really don't know how I feelDo you think I will be okay without you?Will you be okay without me?It is really hard to live in this world without youThat is why I blame myself for still breathingWhat should I do? Even now, I live these painful days because of what you saidTell me if this is a bad thing to doDo you live every single day painfully like me?You and me.Are we too late? Do not we have a chance?I still think about you and you might know thisIs it finally this? Are we going to end up like this? Is it okay with you?I don't think I can do it. The love that I found by meeting you, I wont find it anywhere else even if I dieWhat should I do? If it isn't you, no one else can be in my heartPlease hold me. And you know that even though the whole world would tryNo one can erase your memories. So please hold me.What should I do? Even now, I live these painful days because of what you saidTell me if this is a bad thing to doDo you live every single day painfully like me?You and me.Is it too late? Do not we have a chance?But me, I still think about you, and you might not know it.This are the lyrics from what shoild i do,jisun.just found this song really touuched my heart and want to share with someone really important in my heart.
sweetheart

holidays is u rest and become more and more lazy...

hi last no post lel too lazy to post haha really sorry...:)holiday still need 2 go back for choir practice i hate it lol...:(kept getting scold by mrs angila and kept doing the do re me fa so la ti do thing like primary kids like that so childlish lol...but what i like is the air-con very cold mrs angila also said like she is teaching a bunch of polar bears haha!funny rite?:)holiday homework about 2 do finish lel so dun need 2 worry about it anymore...now studying for the history test in term 3,i want to get good scores...and made my mum proud of me:)i will work very very very hard to made them happy.plus some good news to all ai fans ai will be playing on 7 pm on weekdays from july onwards happy rite i am so happy lol.i can't wait to see the show already lel can't we start now?and next week will be playing precious babes got guo shu xian so happy i like her very much so can't wait to see her role in precious babes.so that's all for 2 day,i gotta go study history now...i will update you very soon.see you soon,byb!
sweetheart:)

results...

hi last time i said i will tell u my results right?ok let me tell u,ok la the meet-the -parent session the teacher kept telling my mum that i can do better never even praise me sianz..i top the whole class and top 3 for the whole school,not bad right?but still can much better lol:(now holiday lel,so happy,but so many holiday homework but luckily i about to finish lel!:)quite boring at home but got drama to watch.and can stay at home and rest.didn't 0ne always say:rest is to walk a further journey.so i will rest well,study well and play well too!:)so everyone enjoy your holidays!:)

sweetheart

離開

離開你，我會更好嗎?我會更不好嗎?
她想著。恐懼的情緒蔓延，一波一波如海浪般朝她洶湧而來，在情緒的海裡浮浮沉沉，滅頂的恐懼使她覺得自己快要無法呼吸。
然而她終於還是繼續整理手邊的行李。很多，很雜亂。像多年來盤根錯節的感情。當然是不捨，但是一直無法狠下心來修剪雜亂的枝枝葉葉的結果，終於讓横生的雜草，遮蔽住最後的一道光線。來不及了。
來不及了。當然是。他靜靜看著她打包著行李。他覺得，似乎應該開口說些什麼。但，終於還是沒有。他只是靜靜的，任時間流淌，任有形的無形的距離，割裂他們之間的感情。
感情就像是隔夜茶。剛沏好的時候，氣味芳香濃郁，味甘潤喉。她停下手邊的整理，喝了一口隔夜的茶。可過了一夜，冷了的茶，苦了澀了。就像心一樣。
心冷了。愛，也已經遠了。
就倒掉吧!

hi guys!:)

hi guys exam now over and holidays are coming can go shopping lel so happy!:)but the meet-the parent thing also coming lel this wednesday so afraid lol i scare miss wee will badmothed me lol.:(ahhh...now going to school dun need 2 study so good lol:)but many of my favourite teacher leave our school lel so sad!:(they include:miss huang,miss lim,miss shira.sianz all those good teachers leave those bad teachers dun leave so unfair lol.tommorow we are going to meet our new english teacher i got see her once during the exam period she looked darm fierce lol we are going to suffer lel so sad sianz...:(going to facebook now lel so byb for now!:)
sweetheart

白 : 保守中可爱，谦让的爱，活泼可爱 红 : 你的爱充满我心中，你的诚意我领受 蓝 : 贞操，仿佛见到你一样的喜悦，感谢你的好意 紫 : 得到我的爱，你一定会幸福，哀愁，嫉妒 黄 : 有你就幸福 粉红 : 倾慕，浪漫 桃红 : 希望获得芳心 ~风信子的花语为“只要点燃生命之火，便可同享丰盛人生”。这话正好道出了风信子的芳容和内涵。另外不同颜色的风信子有不同的花语，紫色的风信子代表悲伤、妒忌，淡紫色的风信子代表轻柔的气质、浪漫的情怀，白色的风信子代表纯洁清淡或不敢表露的爱，红色的风信子代表感谢你，桃红色的风信子代表热情，粉色的风信子代表淡雅清香，黄色的风信子代表我很幸福，蓝色的风信子代表高贵浓郁，深蓝色的风信子代表因爱而有些忧郁。

hurt...

maybe i still had hope or maybe is that i still haven't give up.today heard what b told me i felt total disappointed with A she actually stabbed me at the back. and why she bacame friends of me is because i am smarter than her and she is making use of me.i felt very hurt. actually i knew for a very long time but i just kept wanting to lied by myself that it was just my imagination.now,i knew everything,i had no more hope on her anymore. now i started to trust B more .anyway at choir today ms Anglia called me little girl so stupid lol and the whole choir is laughing at me felt so embarrassed. and she wanted us to test one of us one by one my heart kept beating very fast i was so darm nervous luckily i pass her test.today at school not bad had a talk about cyber wellness.not bad la,but 2 morrow i think will be very boring lol ms wee will kept talking about science.and we had to decorate the stupid noticeboard.sian,dun look forward 2 it lol.

sweetheart

at school

dun know wat to say lel now at school updating my blog d and t lesson teacher no thing 2 do so let us go computer lab so happy lol!:)but cannot go facebook lel so sad boring lol:(but at least got air-con haha!:)))results get back lel all not back la will u tell u more when i get my report book.byb 4 now!:)
sweetheart

this song very nice you can go listen...;)

one time by justin biber a very nice listen you should go listen and download lol!:)like this song so much!;)

one time

hi guys,i am back...

exam finally over so darm happy lol dun need 2 keep on studying so hard anymore but scare to get the results lol.but at leasts all exam over all already lel.now life getting more and more boring lel lol everyday on com do homework listen to mp3,go to school.ahh,no interesting things.miss jia en so much wish she can be in same school as me.that would never happen and i dun want to hurt her too,she too kind already,so pure and innocence....:(

ahh so stupid of me...:(

today i just had my science exam okay it was easier than i excepeted but i made a lot of careless mistakes lol the retort stand i spelled until retord stand one mark flew away already lel so pain of my heart!!and the 1 kg thing also lol.ahh but never mind at least most of the question si can answer so i think can past and get at lest a 60 plus la.so quite not bad already.don't think so highly of yourself so that you won't feel so sad when you get back your marks.one more maths paper 2 and the exam is over already,so happy lol.yeah.don't worry don't worry,don't worry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

stress but happy...:)

now exam period so wish everybody gd luck lol!;)the only thing gd about exam is u can go home early!:)quite happy that she talk to me 2 day that means in her heart that's still a position for me.i think i am slowly forgiving me.that's the weakest pont in me i can't stay angry for very long.but she still hurt me very much maybe we will become friends again.but we never be the same as the past again...

stress,chang,me...

hi guys exams coming so quite stress la but i think i will do well in mid year examinination so dun worry.jia you to ur all too;p today in class i saw kai li copying answers ffrom the teacher and she just prentened that she did it herself even the teacher suspected her but i knew i saw her copying the answers excatly from the whitboard lol act pro lol!exam also fail today take back hitsory test i get full marks and top the whole class so happy lol!;)kai li fail lol get 12/25 so stupid lol!!!as i hate her more now so today i took her books and threw some all the table and some on the floor.threw her pecil sets on the floor and used my shoes to stepped on it.this is called bao ying hahaha!don't she dare try to provide me or else she will be very cang....okAY that's all i want to share today.bye...:)
sweetheart

angry!!!;9

hi guys today my friend kian li t:old me a news that my made me very angry lol!;(she told me that one day ms wee went into the class and saw litters on the floor.she asked the class who throw the litter,they boys said is kai li throw cos they hate her....but,ms wee dun believe so she said really mah is it kai ting?then the boys said wat i very smart la blah blah blah and wat i very good won't throw litters one lol.ya lol!what made her think that i will throw rubbish.she just believe kai li about everything.what's so good about her,i really dun know her results no good,not popular and darm irritating.so i HATE ms wee for wrongly accusuing till the day she said sorry to me i won't forgive her!:(((

for jia en

giving up...

trying to get into your heart,but i just can't go it.no mattar how hard i tried.when i gave your my heart you rejected it.i felt awful.sometimes i thought u could be mine.when u are with somebody i felt jealous.you ignored me.you may think that i do not care but atually i care very much what u think of me.only u i can think of giving be no.1 in class 2 u.but u dun care about me.and wat is we are gettting further and further away from each other...what happened?can u explain?or else i felt liked giving up...

hi guys..

hi haven't posted for a very long time lel...too busy exams and tests all coming lel mei bang fa.:(rencetly i am very upset and guilty because of choir.i do not like this cca but i am forced to go into it.and recent exams are coming already so i dun really have time to go.plus i do not like the people in choir.i also think that they are very unresonable and i hate them...ms liu wants mwe to come she says what i have talent la wat practice for a long time already dun come to perform on speech day very ke si.but i am really very tire already being scolded by my mum,the naggings,exams,stress.i can't stand it anymore.i just want to get away from this world...
sweetheart

performing at the mrt station...:)

hi i think it's a really long time since i wrote.sorry but exam really near so not really able to write often but after the exams i think things will be softer...yesterday my school choir went to performed at the macpherson mrt station lel.i have to put on makeup lol,i looked so darm funny lol..those eye shallow look the most funny...but very sad lel as when we perform only a few people and our school people make out the most....but stilll very happy to performed as got cca points lol!;)that day very tired lol as i go to the mandai cemetery that day also to ji bai my grandmother.wake up at 6 am already lel perform untill 4 plus.that day 10 plus then sleep.by the way today get back science common test i past la got 24/35.still not very please with my marks as i made a lot of careless mistakes lol darm careless lol.that's for all today i am gonna watch the new show my dad buy byb for now....:)

sweetheart

funny...

hi recently so many tests and exams so kinda stress and busy.:( i have just finished my maths wat ca1 quiz soo darm easy lol say kea i bet even u can get full marks lol!<; let be tell you a very intresting thing happened to me today,hee hee!today before choir say kea and me was at the fourth floor of the school and we were playing and then i felt liked going to the toilet.you must be wondering now why so intresting about going to the toilet right.let me tell u wat happened...i went into the toilet and i was holding my wallet because my pocket already no space to hold then when i was about to pee suddenly i drop my wallet into the toliet bowl!!!!!and wat was so darm disgusting was that i still have picked up my wallet as i have my ez-link card inside i almost vomit.ehh!!!:( and then say kea could't stop laughing at me,ahh!and do you know what happened in the end i threw the wallet that costed me $33.90 alway.ahh such a waste but i don't dare to use it anymore already...

giving up...

hi guys recently i feel very tired studying and studying everyday.everyone thinks that i enjoy studying very much...but i dun really like to study i study because i need to study cause my mum will be angry with me if i cannot go express.sometimes i feeel like giving up not studying anymore i admit i like the feeling of being treated as a genius in my class i can feel it being the top student for the whole class.but 2 day i really feel very tire i dun feel like contuning anymore.my wishes always dun come true so why should care about it so much.i am so tire with my life nad i just want a person to take care of me and understands me who will always be there when i needed help who will always stands by me.when will that person arrive in front of me?

人间正道是沧桑 片尾曲 信仰

new show

hi guys it have beeen a long time since i post.today i will like to introduce a show call(人间正道是沧桑) it is really quite a nice show it talks about the times in china where the the two parties are not ho la...and that show very dramatic.although it is a history drama it is not boring lol and it tells u the happy times and the bad times of china.plus the first esp already show the female lead in this show aborting heer own baby very cruel right?i also think so lol.so i think that's how the china people live i the best.also the ending song also very nice wo xian wo xian fei wo xian fei.i will post it to my blog ur all can listen to it.it's worth listening...:)

hi haven't post for a very long time lel...:)

hi guys sorry i haven't write for a very very long time lel as i am really too busy to write anyway...anywaythursday i we got back our report book.and u guess wat?my result very good lel i am just so proud of myself lol!~~;)my english got band 2 maths, Chinese,science, art all got band 1 lel pro right hahaha!this is the best results i ever got in my whole entire life.just so happy lol.2 morrow going 2 mylene house 2 do geography i very excited lol as 2 morrow say kea and i can practice our innocence song as we are going to sing that song during our choir camp.ahh i felt my life is getting better and i can totally forget my primary school life,yeah!!!!!!!!!!!:)also want 2 say that innocence song really very hard to sing very high lel i always break my voice lol hah but now i practice until i will not break my voice anymore and can sing very high wait till say kea hear me sing 2 me 2 morrow.she will be shock 2 death!:::)))~~
sweetheart

my farking tution teacher...;(

i just hate my tution teacher she gave my some maths question to do and i dun know how 2 do she just didn't even teach she expect me 2 know ahh...she thinks i am a genius i hate her give me that kind of"i am stupid feeling'when i do not how to do something i felt very depressed sad,angry fruastrated and i just shouted at my mum.scolding her getting this tution teacher!;9but what the hell am i doing it's not her fault why am i scolding her i felt guilty.ahhh...what a bad day 4 me...:(

my new phone:lollipop

hi guys yeaterday my mum just brought me a new handphone it's the phone i like for a very long time guess wat?it is lollipop it's not the lollipop u eat and is the brand new LG handphone which is so sweet and adorable.i love it when the first time i seen it.the ringtones are so cute,the graphics are so nice and most of all the earpiece is white!!!;)and the front of the phone it lights up very pretty lights and u can design it ur self.i can't wait to see how my classmates reacts 2 morrow they will be so jealous.hahaha!:)i hold on to it and sleep the whole night i love it so much!;)

but i also discover how much i have change already,if u know me in primary school i am not a person who would spend so much money on handphones i use very cheap phones one.and now recess i always buy drinks and in primary sku i always drink plain water.maybe the earth have already change me...i am not me anymore.and i now is talking about kai li bad words,almost like bullying her i felt a bit guilty.why am i doing this?why am i learning from the people from 6H the way they treated me i tink maybe i just want revenge maybe i just felt too upset in the past so i want someone to put revenge on.i tink maybe i should stop although she is BAD but i dun to be like them.the people who hurted me so much...
sweetheart

so happy lel

hi today now at mylene's house lel her house very nice lel and almost every room have air-con lol,very rich ju shi very rich la so envious lel!i never regret coming to her house.hehehehe!;)she is now lending me her family lAPTOP even her family laptop is so nice and her laptop i pink so cute.ahh so this is how the rich people rich sian why am i not a rich person,sian!

i am such a fool...;(

yesterday i have a dream about the day i took my psle results,suddenly that pain on that day came back.since that day i never really want to talk about this word anymore i don't want to see the thing again because when ever i see it i just remember what happen that day and my heart felt so pain and it makes me wanna cry.i am running away from the fact that i am a normal academic student i just do not want to face the fact.because i can't belive i am such a stupid person...i don't want to belive that i get such low marks for my psle.just 1 MARK I CAN GO EXPRESS!i can't belive the minute i took my results those hurting words from my teacher i felt that i wanna die.it's not fair why can't i go express just 1 mark only.this feeling it's like if the time goes back 1 more minute u can save yr beloved person.i don't even i can go express this year.maybe i already stop beliving myself.i just fake a smile infront of my friends so they won't see i am such a sad person.there's no one who totally understand me,people close to me think they understand but actually they no,they do not know my past,my thoughts,my mind.sometimes life can be so unfair when u work so hard to acheive something.they just dun let u get what u want.i don't wanna live in this world already,it's so cruel.and things happening recently just break my heart so much and if i cannot go express this year.i dun really feel like living anymore...it's just so heartbreaking...
sweetheart

so angry!;(

hi guys sorry i have not written for such a long time,this week in our school is the imbc week in case u do not wat is it i will tell u now...it is call integration beyond the macpherson classroom and we listen to workshop talking abt workshop it is 2 day conducted by mrs chua ong.and i am very angry 2 day actually is 12 pm go home but we ended up going home at 2 plus,so angry u know!she sAY LOTS OF PEOPLE TALK but i didn't talk wat so why did i need 2 stay back,i even need 2 cancel my tution because of her,so angry and i got a big scolding from my mum!:(i won't forgive her!anyway,2 morrow we are going 2 the s'pore flyer so excited and 2 morrow is also kian li birthday lel!we will be holding a party at the singapore flyer 2 morrow she will be so happy to see that!and i wish her a happy birthday lol!;)2 morrow is the first time going 2 the s'pore flyer i am really very excited lel hope i will have a very enjoyable time 2 morrow and not ending up getting scolded by that mrs chua ong lol!that's all 4 today,going shopping lel,see ya!:)
sweetheart

bad mood

hi guys,sorry i haven't write for a very long time.recntly,my dad got me a laptop but it's second hand one la,i am using this laptop to write my blog now.although it is second hand one it is faster than my old computer so i pefrer using it la...school now always very busy and so much homework to do made me so tire and always having a bad mood lol...luckily i have more friends around to comfort me lol:)yesterday take back my maths common test i did not very well la 18/25 althogh i past a lot already still not very please with my marks as i made a lot of careless and stupid mistakes which i felt very stupid myself...:(never mind next time do better can already,gotts go now mum is scolding me to bath already.byb for now!;)
sweetheart

this song is very nice you can listen to it it's my favorite song...;)

this song is very nice you can listen to it it's my favorite song...;) please tag and comment,thanks!:)

this song is very nice you can listen to it it's my favorite song...;)

yi xin..

hi it's beeen a long time since i last wrote as i am very tired and busy this few days,sorry...anyway very happy that my chinese common test got 49/50 and i top the whole class for that:)english the letter writing i score quite well 2.but the ct3 i dun know hope can can pass lol.god bless me please...my idol is song yi xin in ai channel 8.i really like her very much and this sunday she have a miscarriadge and went crazy i really like want 2 cry out so much you know this woman is so ke lian.:(althogh there are lot's of people who do not like her but i dun really care cos she the best 2 me...
sweeetheart

(hapy)new year!

new year finally came.yesterday go eat 2 renion dinners it was quite nice but it is some kind of boring to me always doing these things over and over again,sian...today going to eat a very wonderful lunch so hungry now,yeah!:)today i wear the skirt i like best and i am really very happy to wear it,and nice shoes and branded bags which i like best also.atually,i tink new year is a day we can show off our clothes and bags,hahaha!!sian,the first day of sku after chinese new year got english common test,so many common test,i really want to kill the teachers lol so mean,i just gonna die u know...i tink that's that all i have 2 say.byb and hope u have a happy new year!
sweetheart:)

....

today just fine,the maths kind of complicated ahh head so pain...but i somehow will try to understand,yesterday yu jing gave me a hong bao so funny,today i gave her back hahaha...i dun really know wat 2 say 2 day,i am very tire 2 day,i heared from my chinese teacher i like score quite well in my chinese common test,so happy!:)still next week still got common test i very,very tired already,why so many common test,i really very tire lel....and 2 morrow still need 2 see ms wee sian...
sweetheart

so angry...

i just finish that STUPID MOVIE MAKER PROJECT I do all about 20 times then caN FINALLY SAVE finally that stupid project was finally done and i don't want 2 do it ever again.i do until want 2 cry already lel u know so angry!!!!!!!;(okay,but manage to do finish then very good already ahh....today at school same boring thing,today kian li came late and need to run 7 rounds...ms wee day say i very smart and she like me very much,i want to VOMIT!!hahaha!and today she say that she haven't marry yet finally say lel,i can find that i slowly don't hate her so much,i know this very stupid buti can see it myself and i don't really know why?;>and 2 morrow english periods need 2 sit with the indian girl venny ahhh....still sit with andy is better why change place?and the min le promote 2 chairman already so funny he also can be a chairman,i think vice chairman i will vote for mylene i tink...i thinks that's all for 2 day gonna bath now...;)
sweetheart

lalala...

today quite a happy day as i THINK i top the class for science that was very good but very bu gan xin that i lose two marks just because of some stupid mistakes,ahh...mylene also get very great marks good 4 her!:)that kai li talk to mylene like she top the whole class ahh that woman i really dun know wat to say already forget about her..today movie maker project very irritiating i do again and again and all it came up is cross and cross and cross!!!!;(the mr wat say must put all the photos together with the project then can ahh sian 2 morrow tell him to teach me la...2 morrow still got 2.4 run sian...;9run until want 2 die liao...i tink ms wee start to notice me already but i dun really about this kind of she like me things anymore already.i guess i am just tired...2 day go eat very nice food thai food which i like best,so happy!okay i tink that's all 4 today gonna do homework now byb...
sweetheart:)

yesterday,2 morrow,2 day

hi guys today quite a nice day,can on computer for a very long time yeah!~~2 morrow take back science common test you know i really wish to top the whole class u know other subjects i can dun top but just that subject i Must top i am just doing it for ms wee to see that kai liis nothing else but stupid...i must sound very mean talking like these but you all dun know the story at the back.i scare that i won't top the whole class u know...2 morrow still got chinese common test so many common test want to faint already,so stress...ahh see the god will.cross my heart and hope for the best...
sweetheart

myself...

today go to school do cip go house and house collect recyling things it's quite fun u know as my friends and i were talking all the way.i also felt happy doing these things.my grades are getting up and now i have lots of friends now like mylene,kian li,yu jing all those they are really good to me.i felt so happy to have so many friends and mylene is so nice to me and we are kind of best friends.you know it is better than last year when i have no friends,no best friends you know so left out.that kind of feeling is so sad...now this year my life change,my results are good,have friendship.that's the life i hope for...and my wish did come true...
sweetheart

sian...:(

today stupid day again,ms wee like trying to treat me well but i still hate her dun care wat she say.everybody in this class keep saying that i am very smart,i dun understand am i smart?if i am smart i won't be in normal acedamic already lel so they all got problem lol.if anyone in my old class hear that i am smart they will drop their head off and laugh...;0english all very boring la,no intresting things 2 say...very thanks to mylene for giving me a notebook i like her very much.2 day i talk alot of kai li badworks but hoh she dun care care want lel she still talk 2 me this woman very thick skin lel...;(i hate her lol...choir very tiring keep singing until voice want 2 break lel....march still got camp sian...:(but lucky no need 2 stay over night.i think that's all 4 today.gotta to do my chinese assesment book now see ya.
sweetheart

sad...

today in sku just another stupid day but some of my friends quite good we chat in design class haha so funny...2 day not bad la get full marks for my maths quite happy but my geography needs to be improve 13 marks only sian...:(ms wee today talk lot's of rubbish hate her.2 morrow science test i MUST get the highest to win that stupid kai lib and to let her see that kai li is just a idiot.hahahaha!!!!what 2 say now?i miss my school a lots even thogh they would bad 2 me i still miss them.2 day 2.4km run mok exam wat sian run until want to faint already lol...but lukily i tink i still past.god bless me.that's all 4 2 day byb...~~~~

school...

school not bad quite nice 2 day as i score the highest for english today very happy:)school so much better with mylene(maybe i spell wrong sorry)and kian lee they make me feel that maybe i this school i still have some goood friends and they made me laugh and not being so lonely anymore.i hate my form teacher ms wee she just a very naggy person and i like her so much i try to lie to myself that she's just for our good but she being so bad to me and rude and very bad alot of things and she just like that stupid kai li.what's so good about her???she just a teacher's pet!her results not good anyway and so proud always fake hardworking i really to slap on that bitch... never mind ms wee i will make her regret why she didn't like me in the first place.i tink tha's all for 2 day i gotta do my project now byb...:)
sweetheart

bad mood,tired.

today just another stupid day teacher tell me to help her say i very good blah blah blah...today english common test quite easy just the summary need a lot of thinking skills for me as i always write until very long lol...if i get the top score i will be very happy lol,cross my heart and hope for the best!~~the maths ahh starting to get more and more difficult head very pain lol...ahh,nothing really to talk now 2 morrow still got lt test but that one i have a lot of confident and i don't tell u welll that's a secret to myself.that's all i want 2 say 2 day byb...
sweetheart~~~

today

today just a normal day my friend didn't come wonder how she is?maths today teach new chapter very hard lel never mind i will try my best lol...i am happy that all teachers in my class seem to notice me already i feel so pro in my class not just the stupid fool in 6h last year that was a bad memory and i hate everyone inside that except for one person.today homework lots sian!2 morrow still got english common test ahh!!!better go do my english project now byb byb see ya guys...
sweetheart

sunday 24 jan 2010

satuday my parents and i went to chinatown at night.lots of people the same things.frireworks,everything still the same.everyone seems so happy but don't know why i feel so sad i felt that the world have lots of people dying why are we still so happy?do we the power to be happy?i think humans including myself are so selfish,they all just care about themselves,they eat animals who gave us the right to eat them.we keep saying bad guys are cruel but actually deep down in our hearts we are the ones who are cruel...


secondary a brand new year.quite nice for me as i top the whole for every subject.but everyday so much homework so tired make me feel so stress.friendship ok everyone in my class i just felt ok...i have no intrest to have a best friend i just want to keep to myself.weird,freak i don't care what you say.this world is a very cruel world and i myself are a bad person too.sometimes i felt that nobody understand me and never will anyone will....ps:i will not write about idol things just my thoghts and feelings...